
They rest quietly on the studio's windowsill, waiting patiently for me to notice that they're blooming yet once again. Delicate purple faces, edged in white, stretch toward the sun, as so many of us do. A tiny little miracle occuring right before my eyes.
Breathing in literally, well, their scent is muted, but that's not fills my heart and senses with delight. I'm breathing in memories that sate my soul.
My mother could coax anything into bloom; in fact, when she had tired of the yearly poinsettia, she did her best to try to ignore it, hoping it would die of its on accord. She'd ignore it, watering only when she couldn't stand it anymore, but its red and white blooms filled our laundry room, long past Christmas, long past Easter. Flowers filled her house, her favorites being African violets.
And in my house? Not quite the same story. Cacti and I partner well, as does the quite boring philodendron. I need something that requires minimal care.
In the last few months of mom's life, her flowers began to die quietly. Taking care of then was beyond dad, his whole being focused on mom.
After her funeral, he asked us to remove her things, leaving the house for my sisters and I to do the job. We quietly packed, sharing memories. I noticed a plant in a corner of the sewing room, determinedly holding on to life.
Neither of my sisters wanted it. Dad told me, "It's up to you. I'll kill it."
But the problem was, I thought I'd kill it too. I'd bought so many of these beauties, and I killed each and every one no matter how hard I tried. I relucantly brought it home, mourning its sure demise.
Here we are, nearly 8 years later. It's outgrown several pots, and I hold my breath, figuring that surely this time I'd kill it.
I'm thinking it's mom, quietly making sure that something of hers would survive. I'm certainly not doing it on my own.
And, each time it blooms, it takes away my breath and makes me smile in delight.